Letting Go

Moving on is not just forgetting, but also letting go. Letting go of the person who used to meant the world to you. Letting go of the person you gave your heart to. Letting go of the person you love the most. Letting go of the person who said would never leave. Letting go of the person who said would stay.

Bagaimana kalau tiba-tiba kenangan menyerangmu seperti kawanan kuda yang baru dibebaskan dari istalnya? Kemungkinanmu selamat dari terjangannya sangatlah kecil. Pahit memang menyadari semuanya sudah tidak punya arti apa-apa. Hari yang telah lalu hanya cerita. Tak peduli setahun pertemuan telah berlalu, cerita hanyalah cerita. Cerita nyata yang terasa layaknya ilusi. Tidak akan pernah ada "nanti" yang terjadi. "Kalau" hanyalah "kalau". Iming-iming manis sebagai hiasan.

“It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't coma back. You're left so alone that you can't explain. Damn, there's nothing like that, is there? I've been there and you have too. You're nodding your head.” 
― Henry Rollins, The Portable Henry Rollins